I'll Find My Wings

Art

| An escape or a chance at freedom |

               
    Wings are like weapons. Its weapons that will decide the better or worse of your life. Its that leap of faith you take before you start something different. Its that law case you take, day after day wishing you were in the kitchen, cooking a storm, holding your very own cookbook with a huge smile on your face. Its when you sit in the girls school bathroom, bawling your eyes out over what someone had said, wishing you had better words to fight. Its sitting in a square boxed office feeling so entirely miserable and tired, but you just somehow keep dreaming of dancing like a graceful ballerina on stage. Its staying up till 3 a.m. in the morning thinking of that same girl you can't out of your head but you just don't have the confidence to go say hello. Its waiting everyday for something special to happen, but staying at home not striving to do anything. Its that feeling of being so sick of being unhappy with life. Its taking that leap of chance you are not sure what it might lead. Its wanting to change and actually be who you want to be...
     Its when you are standing on that ledge, looking down from so high up. You get so scared till your legs start to jiggle. You take a deep breath feeling the cool air inside your lungs. And then you close your eyes and scream "I'M READY" and take that last step. You shut your eyes so tight waiting to feel that rough ground smash your body. But you don't. You open your eyes, and your flying.
    You turn around and there it was. In all its beauty and light, looking as majestic as ever. Those are your wings, you had grown your own. By starting to believe, starting to gain your confidence, starting to take chances in your life. You look back and the world seemed so dark but you look ahead and all you can see is everything in life that you had always wanted to be.

   Because when will we be ever ready. How long are we going to wait? How long will we stand by? Take the chance and go.

Awake

Art

| The Owl |

          

           Owls remind me of animals that only come out at night. It  reminds me of people that only come out in the dark so they could not be seen in the light. Afraid of rubbing off as an attention seeker, center of attention and under the spotlight. Afraid of living in fear and influenced by what the world signifies as cool or in-trend or even stereotypical. Its about fearing we are not good enough for our way of living. Its about staying safe. But what we don't see is how beautiful we are even during the night. 

           Its about learning to be brave and strong. To embrace our flaws. You are the only person who is the best at being you. Its about shining in the dark and staying in the light. Its about learning to love and accept who we are. In the end, we will eventually meet people who will accept us for who we are. Even on our darkest days.

Love,
Rachel Khloe Phan