Friday, 25 December 2015

Exhale

| Fashion |

| Scream - Ellie Goulding |







| Dress - Cotton On | Jacket- Esprit | Necklace- H&M | Shoes- Topshop |        

         Hello everybody! I am finally back after 3 months of dead silence on my blog. Its been a crazy past 3 months. Just sitting here now and writing what has happened in the ;past 3 months really made me stop and just think to myself "Did I seriously do that?".
        Where do I even begin? Well, my 4th semester just ended last Friday when I handed in my ruching dress as my final assignment. And what hell semester 4 was. I can honestly say that it was by far the toughest semester yet. 4th semester definitely pushed me to my limits and made me a much stronger person. I never ever had to sleep at 5 a.m. for a week before. Semester 4 was emotional breakdowns, bleeding fingers, limited sleep and fast food diets.
         Despite being so, semester 4 was also good memories with my friends, having friends to be there for you, stress singing together, late night McDonalds, group hugs, and lots of laughter. Although the stress was definitely there, I was fortunate enough to be surrounded by people who evened it out and made the situation much less stressful then it actually is.
          So all in all, it was a memorable semester. But I am just so grateful that it ended. Now my plans for this 2 week semester break is to just focus on my blog and spend as much time with my family and friends to end this roller-coaster ride of 2015. Probably a very emotional New Year's blog post will be up soon which I am looking forward to writing. Which brings me to what I have planned for my blog, I definitely want to be consistent with my blog post, but I'm so busy with school that it takes a whole lot of time to write. So I was thinking of just posting my everyday outfits and writing no content. I definitely do want to write but some days, I really don't have anything to write about. Its hard when all you did was go to school and have a mind full of stress. And I definitely would want to write about something I truly feel inspired by or real and I wouldn't do if I had to post weekly. So what do you guys think? Let me know in the comments. I have new things planned for this blog and trying new things rather than it just being the same all the time.
         The outfit is just something I would wear to go out. This dress is so comfortable you don't even know. I'm sorry for repeating this leather jacket, but it just goes with everything. I have more of a rock punk look that I think goes with what I was feeling.
       Alright 2015 is ending and Christmas is near. Go out and make the most out of 2015 before it is all over. Find the perfect way to end 2015. Go do whatever it is that you want to leave in 2015 that you don't want to bring in 2016. 
    "Where are you moving? I said "Onto better things"

Love,
Rachel Khloe Phan

Monday, 5 October 2015

A Red Situation

| Fashion |

| Always This Late - ODESZA |











| Dress- British India | Earrings- Lovisa | Shoes- Nine West |

       Its a typical Monday afternoon. I look outside and the haze isn't so bad. The sun is actually shining (well a little at least). No sign of rain or storm and I decided to take advantage of this situation and whipped my camera out.

Monday, 17 August 2015

Living in the Now

| Fashion |

| Yolo |

| Theme Song : Runaway- The Galantis |











| Jacket- Esprit | Blouse- H&M | Jeans- Zara | Sunglasses- Flea Market | Shoes- Topshop | Bracelet- Heart Attack | Earrings- Mango | Belt- Esprit |

         These last few days have been pretty busy. And for once its actually not about school (though I still have a ton of work to do). These last few days have been late night honest conversations, city lights, independent train adventures, laughing till my stomach hurts, really nice smelling apple body scrubs, late night drives and scented candles.
         Where do I start? Well the highlight of last week was probably attending KL fashion week. I was clearly not invited (yet) but I really wanted to get in. Like I had this gut feeling I needed to get in. My friend Emelia and I was watching from the 3rd floor at pavilion. I kept getting excited and telling Emelia how awesome this whole thing actually was. I turned to her and said "We need to get in, lets go get in".
        So we went down to the front registration and there were people crowding around and like those belt barrier things was covering the entrance. I was looking around trying to like find a way to get in, but this was for invited guest only. But then, Emelia made eye contact with the lady at the entrance. The lady at the front registration mouthed the words like "You wanna go in?" to Emelia, and pointed her thumbs towards the entrance. Emelia nodded and called me over. The guard opened that belt barrier thingy for us and let us in. To this day, Emelia addresses her as her "home gurl". We are forever grateful for our home gurl.
         I couldn't believe it. I didn't know if it was because of our outfits or just because there were some empty seats, or the show was already half way through, but it was definitely luck. Walking down the stairs to the end of runway where all the photographers were standing at, was kind of a surreal moment for me. I was like shaking with excitement. I kept squeezing Emelia's hand saying "I can't believe we got in".
Sorry for the blury pictures! I was trying to savor the moment.
         I loved every single thing about about it. The camera's, the tall tall models, the very stylish crowd, the invited guest strutting around walking so confidently, the differences in fashion, the way each individual was not shy about expressing their own sense of style, the very professional looking make up on their faces, the flash of camera's everywhere, the smell of expensive perfume as people walk by, right down to the brightly long runway. I loved every thing about it. I couldn't stop thinking how awesome everything was and how much I wanted to get to this point one day. And in this moments was when I realized how much I love what I'm doing and how much I am sure I'm doing the right thing.
         And maybe I'm exaggerating, and its not such a big deal. Maybe they had let anyone get in. But it doesn't really matter to me because this whole experience had made me feel motivated again. It made me happy and in my book, a day to remember forever.        
        Location for this very hot photo shoot was on the 42nd floor with Emelia. Credits to her for all these photos. Lots of love Emelia. We were actually rushing because we wanted to catch the shuttle van from my apartment to Pavilion. Nonetheless, it was a successful one. This top is no stranger. I think I wear this top way too much. But its just so versatile and matches literally anything. These jeans though. I am wearing it a lot now. It is so comfortable and I love how its high rise. These shoes are just gladiators from Topshop that has a a short heel to give some height, but is still comfortable. This leather jacket you know too well. What can I say? It just gives the whole outfit a much edgier look. I topped it off with a belt, matching earrings and a red lip, to give the whole look some color.
This is Emelia. Without her the day would never be the same.
          I actually feel extremely grateful for this past couple of days. Trying to yolo as much as I can. I'm surprising myself with how much I've been so daring. To birthday surprises, watching the sun set while my classmates and i went swimming one day, meeting my friend Sam for the last time in a long time before I get to see her again as she is going far away to study, dancing to "Nae nae" in the comfort of Jasmine's bedroom, to looking outside the window, appreciating the city lights that light up at at midnight, to going to places I've never been before. I hate to admit how cheesy I am with appreciating all these little moments, but what can I say? I'm an old soul. Cheers to the little things in life that we will look back in the future and smile upon.

Love,
Rachel Khloe Phan

          
       
       


Sunday, 5 July 2015

Semester Break

| Fashion | 

| Not waiting anymore |

| Theme Song : Heart- Flor |
















| Romper-Mango (MNG) | Sandals- Stall in Seminyak (Bali) | Sunglasses- @mel.low_ on Instagram |
       
        Greetings fellow readers. Its been a hell of a semester break. I actually felt like this was probably the most productive semester break I've ever had. It involved a lot of relaxation, time alone, and restarting the adventure.
        The last semester I had left me a little on the edge. I was just tired and a little demotivated. I had to rejuvenate and start again from everything. This semester break was really much needed.
       I wrote a bucket list of things to accomplish during this semester break. One of them was to do some charity work. I met this woman named Theresa, who was one of my grandmother's friend that was quite active doing some charity work. I met her one day at a gathering and when we were talking she said that there was a soup kitchen thing going on every Friday and asked if I would like to join. I was more than happy to. I don't know why I felt the need to do charity work. I felt a little over my head with the whole city living, high end fashion labels and work. I guess I just needed to do something good. Maybe its just my way of trying to feel like a good person again, but nonetheless I did feel good after. I helped chopped some carrots, ginger, onions and made curry for 150 people. It did feel good.
With Theresa
      I also spent the majority of the time during this semester break with my dear grandparents. I was so bored one day, that I decided to just take a train to visit them. No doubt I felt much more productive being with them. They took me to some of their gatherings (being the socialite grandparents they are) and I met a lot of people. And yes, all these people were at least 20 years older than me, but I found a lot of wisdom talking to these people. I mean these folks already spent 60 years of their lives. They have a whole lot of wisdom and experience to share. And talking to them was a pleasure. With everything they shared,  they said the same thing to me which was "As long as you have a stable income, a loving husband, a nice home and a happy life, you are good to go". And I will engrave those words in my mind, carrying those words with me my whole life.

With Ahma
My lovely grandparents.
       I spent a lot of time alone. I guess I wanted to. I didn't actually know how much I am just thinking. When I was in Lumut, Perak on a holiday with my grandparents, I would go to the beach at like 11:30 p.m. and just sit by the beach reading. There wasn't many people at the resort as it wasn't like school holidays or anything so it was really quiet and empty. I would just sit my butt on these beach benches till like 5:30 p.m. I read a lot and I put my book down once in a while to take a break to just stare into blank space, I stay like this for like an hour without even realizing it. And I was actually just thinking. I didn't realize how much is actually going through my mind. This was my getaway. Like a vacation for my mind to just let thoughts flow. It felt really good honestly.
      
This was me for a good 4 day
      I guess the thing I've came up from all of this is that you don't wait. If you want to go out with your friends go and ask them. If you want to go on an adventure, go on an adventure. If you want to go and have some alone time, go and take a tour around your city. If you want to do some charity, go and find something to do. No one is going to answer you if you don't ask. Take chances. Make mistakes. Feel alive. I'm so glad that I spent this semester break doing things that made me happy. I did things that made me feel like I'm actually living.
      Alright outfit details. I hate myself for forgetting to bringing accessories with me. I love the lace on this romper. I gives very nice detail to it making it look like a chill, flow look to it. It is perfect for days like these to wear to the beach or on a vacation. Extremely cooling. The sandals are nothing new. They are very beaten up, but i still love it. I wished I bought more when I was in Bali. My hair was tied into a side braid that was good to keep the hair from going into my face when its super windy at the beach. Credits to my awesome grandma, that took all these photos. She was very fussy about lighting and did a great job.
      Tomorrow is the start of my 3rd semester. I am not going to lie, I am not looking forward to going back. Just thinking of all the work that will be pilling up very very soon isn't exactly exciting but I know for a fact that when I start doing it, I would like secretly enjoy it hahaahah. So adios amigos. So long for now. If you have gotten this far through the post, you are one awesome person. Thank you for reading. I hope I didn't waste your time. Until next time amigos.


Love,
Rachel Khloe Phan