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     Heyyyyy. I've been pretty busy for the past few days. Mainly because my parents and I are busy moving into the apartment we had rented. I don't have clothes to blog about because I literally look like a sloth sweaty and dirty.
    Coming back to an empty place you are going to call home is so weird. I'm just kind of use to my old home where I climb up my stairs to my room, dump my bag and just laze on my couch and be on my phone for hours. Now, its like empty place, hard stools, smell of cemented floors, new bathroom, different fridge, smaller kitchen. Its like I've left behind so many things I never thought I would miss.
    And I guess it isn't a bad thing. Its good that we are getting new stuff and living in such a different environment. Like I said, I'm just kind of bad at starting again. The place is coming together and soon when some of my old furniture arrives, it will start to feel like a home and not just a house, or in my case an apartment. And it's not just this apartment but what I'm about to study. Its nothing like what I use to do. Its no more science, no more chemicals, no more experiments, no more anything like I had dreaded to do. And I use to be so excited to start and still am. But when its near and coming, you're just like this is really happening. I just kind of get really overwhelmed.
     I'm sorry you guys have to hear me talk about starting again, and new beginnings and stuff like that. But if you really want to know what is going on in my head, its all of this. Sometimes I don't really even know what I'm feeling or whats in my head until I write it out like now. So thank you. I don't know if any of you have felt this way about moving and starting again but if you did or do, I'm with you sista.

Love,
Rachel Khloe Phan