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It's that uncontrollable feeling that makes us all turn
around. Silent wishes that keep afloat but never heard. The stars in the sky that could not begin to count that one wish
that was counted upon it every night. The silent prayers that are sent up
wishing on a feeling that we hoped to ever have a chance to feel. For once to
actually feel something that everyone claims to be the best thing the world
could ever offer.
Songs that are
written with the most honest opinion. Stories and tale that will never be
forgotten. Romeo and Juliet, Twilight and Titanic. "The Way You Look
Tonight", "How Deep Is Your Love", and "Isn't She
Lovely". No one can stop singing or sharing the tale of a woman or a man
that made everything seem like perfect sense. It's clear to see it's not all a
lie. And maybe cupid is somewhere in the sky.
But every day I still wonder what It would be like, to feel it for just
a second and maybe then I will believe that the tales are finally right.
The undeniable happiness that comes bursting
out of every part of your body, like rays of sunlight shining through the leaves. The feeling as if time stood still like a statue
when together. The drums beats from your heart that vibrates so loud you can
almost hear it pounding out of your chest when you see him. The gaze you hold
that would equal to 1000 words if written in an essay. The game changer in your
head that makes you question your whole play. To see their face, and start to
question if there was anyone as beautiful. The long questionable sleepless nights
of over-thinking whist having a million feelings in your head but only one person remains. The smile that could
light up the whole of New York City. The tight grip of trust, wrapped around each finger, never wanting to let go. The feeling of being loved. The knowing of who and
what they are, but loving them anyway. Can you imagine that kind of love?
And I think the best
part is the feeling, of giving and receiving. Feelings are radiated
from all parts of the human body where it is too deep to reach. The raw parts
in our soul, where feelings could not be any more honest. And the feeling of it
makes me wonder, if anyone could ever make me feel this way.
Cupids and Shakespeare will always convince, that someday my true prince will finally appear. Maybe he is right around the corner. Maybe my
expectations exit all limits. Maybe I just haven't met him yet. And maybe when
he does finally appear, it will finally be clear. And when that happens, I will
finally understand what those songs and books actually mean. And maybe even
love him, more than I will love anyone. And maybe the wait will all be worth it.
But with all due respect for the people who do know, what is it like to be in love?
My nights are
long, with kaleidoscopes of dreams and wonder. Every night with unlimited sense
of adventure. On how it would actually feel to ever love. Or in that matter to
ever love someone else as much as you can ever anyone or anything else. And I'm tired of
waiting for this long kind of adventure. Maybe just for a little while, would
that really matter? Just two people to feel a hint of serenity. And it just
makes me wonder, when will be the day that our paths will finally cross.
Sure there is hope, I'm very convinced. By
the true tales that I do witness like a short love story or a play. And true
love, I know does exist. And maybe even soul mates and partners. But it doesn't
stop me from wondering, the dark thoughts that I sweep away. Of actually
never meeting anyone. I'm all up for love in all its wonders, but what if it
never happens to the one girl who actually believed in love, and all its glory?
