Sunday, 31 July 2016


| Fashion |

| Break - Rebecca Roubion |

| Double layer Shirt - Zara | Pants - H&M | Socks - H&M | Shoes - Nike |

Its been a hard couple of days. The days somehow went from really really great to just escalating down in a blink of an eye. I don't really understand what really happened I just know that I hate being in my current position right now.

When these things happen, I always look back at the times when everything was okay. I wish to go back to those times, when I can sleep properly, when I can go a day without having this thought haunting me constantly at the back of my mind. I always wonder what it would be like, to be like that again. I can't wait till my day is like that again. 

I guess that, sometimes you really don't see things coming. Like what I told you guys earlier about how my days have been pretty great and that I have to just go back and do good things to keep the good days coming. I knew that there was a limit, that there is something that is bound to happen to just make everything come crashing down. Maybe its just me, I don't know maybe I just have this stupid philosophy in my head of a theory that only I can prove. But I honestly just feel like there can't be too many great things happening till something bad happens.

I guess that's what life really does. When you really really think that you've finally you've your life all together, life stops you and sends you right back to the start. For everything you hoped so high for, for all the plans you had for the future, for all the work you worked so hard for, was all for nothing and now you're back at level 0. And it just really sucks. 

I'm gonna be happier again, just you wait. I'm going to be more positive in the next blog post, I promise. I try to be positive and I try to forget about shit but I really don't know how to feel like that right now. I understand that we all need to feel like this sometimes, so I'm gonna let myself just feel like shit for a while because I'm not over it. Sometimes, its just not all about feeling happy and some days you need to acknowledge the bad times. 

I remember looking at a girl, standing in the bathroom. Tears was filling up her eyes she couldn't really stop them from coming down even if she tried. So she just stared at herself in the mirror watching herself cry, dabbing her tears away making sure not to ruin her eye shadow. After a while, she pulled out her mascara and powdered her face up. Her tears kept swelling up and rolled down her face but she ignored them. I remembered thinking that that's a girl, completely broken in that moment, but slowly but surely, she is putting herself together. She's trying her best to fix herself, even though she isn't quiet ready. And then I remembered this question in my head I will always ask myself, "When will we ever be ready?". I know the answer to that now, and that is that we will never truly be ready. And I understood why that girl didn't continue crying and being sad for herself, because she will never truly be ready to get up again. I know now, that we have to go and fix ourselves and put ourselves together again, even when we are not ready.

Rachel Khloe Phan

Tuesday, 5 July 2016

Everyday Makeup Products

 | Fashion |

| Real - Hitmane |

Makeup has basically taken over a lot of my time and  money. I've always been the kind of girl that would prefer to spend money on clothes other than makeup, but now I can't even resist going to check out a new product that just came into Sephora, even if it is the same product but in a new packaging. Now, Sephora is like my second home. So I would like to share some of the products I use everyday from my makeup collection!

I'm not going to say that I'm an expert nor do I have a whole lot of knowledge in makeup, because Idon't. I also quite honestly just have makeup that I need and I am still expanding. I use these makeup I have shown in my everyday make-up routine. I don't use a foundation because quite honestly, I'm a little too lazy to do that at 8 a.m. in the morning. But I do use a concealer and the Nars Creamy Radiant Concealers works wonders when you are trying to cover up any blemishes or pores. It stays though the day and blends into the skin perfectly. I use the shade "custard".

For eye shadow, I've been using an alternation between the Naked Smokey palette and the Naked Basics. I've been using the shades Dirtysweet, High, Radar and Wiskey from the Urban Decay Smokey palette and Venus and Naked 2 from the Urban Decay Basics palette the most for my eye shadow. I've also been using Foxy from the Urban Decay Basics palette to set my concealer. 

I've fallen in love with contouring and highlighting my face. I use to think like, "How much of  difference would it make?", and boy was I wrong. Naked Flush does the job, with a very minimal but a dark natural bronze shade. Naked Flushed also has a beautiful blush and highlight. I use the "strip" palette out of the 3 palettes available.

For my browzie brows, I've been using this palette "Work the Colour" eyebrow kit by Collection. This actually came with a eyebrow gel as well together with the brush, but I've used the gel until it the transparent gel it originally was is not a milky and chunky brown mixture. I think this palette is definitely a great steal, its cheap and does the job. I am in the market for a eyebrow pencil, but for now, this will do.

For my eyeliner, I've been using the Maybelline HyperSharp eyeliner in Powerblack. I love this eyeliner, the tip is just right to produce a beautiful wing and gives a powerful black line. I have been using these for a long time but I am going to try something different the next time around when I finish this product. I still think that its a great product for the price which is very affordable. This is great for makeup starters who are looking into liquid liners.

The glosses above are both from Colourpop. The ones I have is in the shade Bumble and Solow from the Ultra Matte Lips range. Bumble is kind of a darker pink and Solow is more of a bright pink. I usually alternate between both, depending on my mood but love both. My makeup bag above, literally explains my life with makeup. I love the wording and have been loving it as it keeps everything I need inside.

This is something new? Let me know what you think about my makeup post and if you want to read more!

Love, Rachel Khloe Phan